Kartikasari

Dear you.
I wish her hands that you hold tightly were mine.
I wish her cheek that you gently kissed was mine.
I wish her hair that you brushed with your fingers was mine.
I wish her eyes that you stared all the time were mine.
I wish her smile that you adored so much was mine.
I wish the songs that you sang wholeheartedly for her were for me.
I wish the sweet laughs that you gave her were for me.
I even wish that her lips -that you secretly and passionately kissed at night- were mine.
Watching you wanted her, my eyes’ teary.
Watching you gave all your love to her, my heart’s bruised.
Wanting you, even after all the sceneries, my soul’s weary.

Why her?
Why not me?

I’m the one you always talk to when she’s not aound.
I’m the one who waits for you everyday at home.
And when we’re talking each other in bed everynight, didn’t it mean something?
I’m sorry, but I can’t take this anymore.
I have to go.
No, a box of Choki-Choki won’t do much.
I’ve made up my mind.
You’re on your own now.
Goodbye.

Dear,
I don’t know whether tomorrow will come or not for both of us,
but I never stop hoping and wishing to see you tomorrow.

Dear,
I don’t know if tomorrow’s gonna befriend with us or not,
but I never got tired asking tomorrow to be nice.

Dear,
I cannot tell whats going to happen tomorrow,
but I will not give up on something I haven’t tried yet.

Dear,
I would do most anything to see you,
to meet you,
to hold you hands,
to hug you,
to kiss you,
to just be with you.

Because you’re nowhere far,
but a day away.

So…
see you tomorrow, Dear?

-Fitriani Dwi Kartikasari, who adored you much.